(part one) It is truly rewarding that so many people see my story–my handling of infertility– as graceful and inspirational. After all, it was my goal from the beginning to walk with grace no matter how painful the experience. But in having that mindset I think I have neglected sharing the really dark days…the days that brought me to where I… Continue reading the ugly truth…
Category: fertility
for my sweet friend…
There is only one thing I want my friends and family to truly understand about miscarriage: The loss of a pregnancy is akin to experiencing the death of a loved one. We who continue to miscarry go through the grieving and mourning process just the same–every time. The anniversaries of the losses and the would-be due dates… Continue reading for my sweet friend…
i have bad days too!
I cried myself to sleep last night. I haven’t done that in a really long time. There are lots of bad days for us Infertiles. 🙂 I hadn’t had one for awhile, until this past week. The whole week seemed like a bad day. It caught me off-guard and sent me reeling. Those of us on infertile… Continue reading i have bad days too!
belly wars
I was sitting in my sister’s car waiting for her to drop Spence off at grandma Hirschi’s. While I was waiting for her, I saw her sister-in-law, Sandi, cleaning out her van. She is pregnant with her fifth child and starting to really show. Wade her youngest was tagging along beside her, Anna her next… Continue reading belly wars
the yearly debate
To go or not to go? That is the question. My first Mother’s Day as a married woman was spent sobbing at church as I had just completed my first miscarriage. Not recommended! My second was spent leading the music on the stand, I cried so hard that my sweet husband had to lead the… Continue reading the yearly debate
why don’t you JUST…
Where to begin, today? I guess the idea that is currently on my mind is the “why don’t you just…” annoyance!!! First, some background. I’ve been on the treacherous albeit enlightening road of infertility for almost four years now. For some I am still considered in my infancy. For others I am the gatekeeper! Okay maybe not the gatekeeper, but… Continue reading why don’t you JUST…