Category: pregnancy

the final step…egg transfer

August 31st 2012….the day we had two little embryos implanted! Unlike egg retrieval, this procedure is relatively short and painless. Of course, I do use the word relative because I did have an ice cold speculum (yes, they ice it first) inserted so that a catheter could be inserted up into my uterus. That is… Continue reading the final step…egg transfer

that darn root…jealousy

It happened today.  I have been waiting for this moment, and it finally arrived. You know, that feeling of utter helplessness, as if time has stopped right in front of you while the world around you keeps swirling and twirling? And no matter how hard you try you cannot make it stop? I thought I might not feel… Continue reading that darn root…jealousy

november rain

2009 Fall is my most favorite time of year…sipping hot chocolate, crunching leaves beneath my feet, the feel of brisk air on my face. (I know, I live in Las Vegas–but a girl can live in her memory, right?) It is a truly glorious time of year, in my opinion. November, however, is difficult for me. This… Continue reading november rain

it is not the same

Adoption is not the same. It is not the same as creating life. I know there are many people who disagree with that statement. But for me, it is truth. My belief system holds that I was put here on this earth to gain a body, find joy, and have children. Okay, that is really… Continue reading it is not the same

the yearly debate

To go or not to go? That is the question. My first Mother’s Day as a married woman was spent sobbing at church as I had just completed my first miscarriage. Not recommended! My second was spent leading the music on the stand, I cried so hard that my sweet husband had to lead the… Continue reading the yearly debate

miscarriage sucks!

I hate it. It is not fair. It is not okay. I do not think any miscarriage or baby loss is more emotionally painful than another. I do think, however, that miscarriage is especially painful for those who do not have any children. This is not because the loss of a child is buffered by… Continue reading miscarriage sucks!

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Friendship and Pregnancy

One of my closest friends and most trusted confidants announced to me last week that she is expecting. Shock, amazement, joy, wariness, concern, and gratefulness are all thoughts that traveled through my mind. I am grateful for her trust in me. I am concerned for her well-being and for that of the tiny little baby… Continue reading Friendship and Pregnancy