Yesterday, Adam and I attended an “adoption education” lecture in Layton, which meant a 1.5 hour drive each way plus 3 hours of lecture time. Needless to say, it was a full day of sitting. I knew I would be uncomfortable, bloated, and running to the bathroom. Plus, I wasn’t really sure I wanted to… Continue reading Something Amazing!!!
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The Good, and the Bad!
We lost our fourth baby this week. That’s the short of it. Part of me is numb, and part of me aches. I told Adam yesterday to give me a few days of ice cream and doing nothing, and I would be better. Three years ago I could not say that. But now, I know… Continue reading The Good, and the Bad!
Positve Thoughts
I can’t help but think we are losing our baby. I made it to eight weeks yesterday. And yet, I am not comforted. I try my hardest to think positively, but it doesn’t help. My life is currenty consumed by cramping and bleeding. I lie in bed all day long, for that is the only… Continue reading Positve Thoughts
Seven Weeks, and Still Pregnant
I had another check-up yesterday. And once again, we have ambiguous answers. The good news is that there is a sac in the uterus, which means no ectopic pregnancy. Phew! This is the first time EVER that we’ve been able to see anything on an ultrasound. The bad news is that my quant numbers are… Continue reading Seven Weeks, and Still Pregnant
The Dreaded First Visit
I was finally seen by a doctor today. She couldn’t see anything definitive on the ultrasound, but I’m only 5 weeks so she’s not super concerned. Besides the pain on my right side there is nothing from the check-up that points to another ectopic. However, I’m having my quant levels checked today and Friday so… Continue reading The Dreaded First Visit
An Unplanned Pit Stop?
Why is it that plans always change? Why is this one simple task of having children so difficult? This is not a “why me” question, just a why question. I am a woman…I am made to bear children. It is a gift and a birthright. And I also want to do it. I want to… Continue reading An Unplanned Pit Stop?
Journal #3–The Changes I Envision
There are oh so many changes I envision. I daydream about them all the time. Going from no children to four children is mind-boggling to say the least. Here are the questions I most frequently think about: How will I grocery shop? What kind of large vehicle will work best? Do I home school, private… Continue reading Journal #3–The Changes I Envision
Journal #2–Why do we want to adopt?
This is a loaded question, if ever there was one. Below are the two main reasons we want to adopt: The first reason I want to adopt, internationally specifically, is because of the desire Adam and I have to fill our lives and our home with children and culture. One of the things we treasure… Continue reading Journal #2–Why do we want to adopt?
OUR FIRST VISIT
Here we are pulling out of our driveway in the fog, snow, slush, and mist to make the one hour drive to our social worker’s house for our first meeting. (If you click on the picture you will see Adam waving to the camera 🙂 I wasn’t nervous at that point because it was only… Continue reading OUR FIRST VISIT
Kill a Tree, Survive the Paperwork!
515349 I am taking the advice of my brilliant friend Jaime Lynne Lea…we are snapping as many pictures of the adoption process as we can think of. She reminded me the other day that this is like our pregnancy phase of the journey. Why shouldn’t I take pictures? If I was pregnant we would take… Continue reading Kill a Tree, Survive the Paperwork!